Finding the Time

 Okay Okay, what I am about to say I never thought I would admit in a million years...

I like exercising! Crazy!

I have always been rather lazy, preferring to stay in bed and watch movies, but recently I've wanted to tone up my body and lose a few pounds, slim up a little. I want to take care of my body. So I've been doing pilates 3 times a week. Tonight I accidentally missed pilates and decided to go on a run! I never would have seen myself doing that six months ago. My excuse has always been 'I don't have the time' or 'I don't have the energy', well, listen here, if you want it, you make the time. I've included my friends in joining me at pilates, and that has helped, but when I go, I do it for myself; it's not for the company, it's for the results. 

What else am I juggling in life? Let's take a look:

- applying for my master's program (today alone, I spent 2 hrs on my resume and CV)

- working full time

- full-time course load in school

- gaining service hours to enhance my master's application

- getting used to my new ward (this is hard as I'm still getting used to 

- general adulting tasks: cleaning my house, grocery shopping, laundry

- being social and growing my friends

- improving my physical health

- improving my mental health

- self-care (this is so important)

Things I wish I gave more of my time to:

- studying the scriptures

- getting a church calling

-going to the temple more frequently

Clearly, a lot of areas of my life are excelling where whereas I wish that my spiritual side was stronger than it is. Which is okay! I don't have to thrive in every aspect of my life. 

So how do I find the time in my busy life for all that I have to do and all that I want to do? Here's the deal: you make the time, you find it, but you don't do so much as to overwhelm yourself or cause burnout. Amongst all my busy life, I find the time to take a long soak in the bath, paint my nails, do a face mask, and have a good cry. Burnout is so real. I have crashed out a lot this semester over everything that I have going on. 

Why do I keep pushing and going? Why do I have so much on my plate right now, and how do I keep going? Here's a quote I heard:

"Everybody says discipline is so important, but never wants to tell you why--I'll tell you why: It is the strongest form of self-love. It is ignoring something you want right now for something better later on. Discipline reveals the commitment you have to your dreams, especially on days when you don't want to. The FUTURE YOU is depending on the current you to keep the promises you made to yourself yesterday." - Jordan Ferron

Another quote of his that I found in looking up the first quotes is:

"The only way to get to day 800 is to start with day 1. One decision. One shift in your mindset. One thought of being tired to stay the same. The only thing that matters is starting. Day one turns into day two. Day two turns into a week. A week turns into a habit, and a habit turns into a lifestyle. You don't need to see the finish line, you just need to take the next step, cause the only difference between day 1 and day 800 is consistency and a relentless will to just keep going." - Jordan Ferron

I don't really feel like writing about them, but more so just letting you take what you will from these quotes. This is a fraction of what my mindset looks like; it is not the full picture, but it's what I am actively and currently working on.